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It was in the month of September 2013 and it was only 1 month since I had moved to Switzerland.

It was a pleasant day in the countryside where I stay. It is not very often this country is blessed with sun’s rays. It was one of those days when sun was out and weather was at its best.

There is a forest at just 15 mins walking distance from my house. The forest is unimaginably beautiful with tall trees and small brooks in between.

Extremely dense, one can rarely see wolves move amongst the trees yet not interfering with some solitary walkers like me. Since it was autumn, all the dried yellow leaves were on the forest floor.

I consider these walks in the forest as a kind of forest meditation. One can walk and amongst the tall trees oblivious of surroundings and absorb the peace from the surroundings.

It is not often I get to enjoy the forest as I am yet to get accustomed to the climate here. Unless the sun is out, I find the weather too harsh for me.

On that day, I sat in quiet meditation amongst some tall trees thinking of my Guru Ramana and crying for my Arunachala.

The house keys were in the pocket of my jacket. (Every member in my house has a house key and the one who goes out should get inside the house on their own!!).

I had walked many miles in the forest before sitting down to meditate. I picked up my mobile phone to switch it off and kept it back in my jacket.

After an hour of tranquility, I got up and walked all the way back through the forest towards my house.

When I reached the end of the forest, I realized the mobile was switched off and I put my hand in the pocket to find to my utter dismay that the house keys were missing.

It had started to become dark. I walked all the way back and since the forest is dense, I stopped when I knew I would reach nowhere in the hunt and started my way back home.

I was exhausted physically and mentally. I knew what was in store for me at home.

It gets dark very early here and when I reached home I rang the bell to get inside. My husband asked me where the keys were. I said I lost it in the forest. He said that I had to get them back, no matter what.

I had to go with him all the way back into the dense forest in the dark with a torch. I was crying as my legs could not take it anymore. But he gave me no choice.

After about 2 kms in the forest, I said a lie that I had walked only till that point but in fact I had gone much much farther.

I could have lost the keys when I had put my hand in the jacket to switch off the mobile.

He was cursing me on the money that would be involved in getting a new pair of keys and the number of keys he would have to duplicate and how irresponsible I was.

It continued and due to exhaustion I could not keep a step further. All this while, I was saying ‘CRYSTAL GORSE WOLF REACH HELP NOW’. I kept chanting like mad.

We had reached the end of the forest when we saw in the dark another couple enjoying a stroll in the forest.

My husband for no reason went up to them and said in German that I had lost the keys and if ever during their strolls during the day or anytime they find it, to inform him, and gave his number.

They agreed and moved on. It was so dark and the forest floor was full of autumn leaves. There was absolutely no hope of getting the keys.

The fury and the exasperated expression on my husband’s face and my exhaustion made me call LOUD – WOLF IF YOU ARE THERE, Please get me the keys…REACH HELP NOW.

Believe me we heard a loud call from behind. The couple whom we had met was running towards us. The lady reached to me hugged me and gave me the key.

I cried loud thanking my wolf and you for the great help I got. It seems, they had walked a little further and then leaned on a tree. Something poked the lady’s back and it was the key.

My husband and that couple said it could be someone else who was taking a stroll had found it and hung it on the branch of the tree.

I did not say anything as I knew clearly that I had not lost it anywhere there. It is the Wolf, my angel spirit and my Master – you, who helped me on that day.

With an attitude of gratitude, I bow with respect to this great teacher and my angel spirit!!!